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Mama’s making rosaries
I pray her prayers’ll cover me
She can hear it when I speak
I’ve tried sparing her the honesty
This city makes it hard to breathe
Counting money and losing sleep
Seeing me, you’re seeing green
Try to commodify the best of me
My heart don’t trip
But my feet might
You’re bidding on my soul
But there’s no price
The way you take a woman and romanticize
Her pain, her pleasure, her sacrifice
My heart don’t trip
But my feet might
You’re bidding on my soul
But there’s no price
The way you take a woman and romanticize
Her pain, her pleasure, her sacrifice
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I called mom sobbing, just being like, I can't do it. I can't do it. I feel like a little bird, and there's like someone's hands around me, and it’s just like, slowly, slowly squeezing me, and I, I'm gonna suffocate. And she was like, that's not good, Bella, that's not good.
-Bella Genta
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Corner of Church & Ninth
Swallowing my pride
Three hours till my flight
This no time to fight
I step to the side
Wait on my tears to dry
Confessing that you’re right
Just for peace of mind
Didn’t mean to make you feel so comfortable
I’m gon have to charge you for that video
Lying bout your dreams like they were made for two
Curled up in your room
I was a fool for you
Waiting, hoping, praying you'd still
Touch me the same
Waiting, hoping, praying you'd still
Call my name
Waiting, hoping, praying I’d be enough
To make you wanna change
Waiting, hoping, praying you'd be
Half the man that you claimed
So don’t think you can fix all this with a kiss
Had me fly out, meet your family, had you talking bout kids
I’m not dealing with your shit
And the friends you’re sleeping with
God bless the next girl
When you’re her problem to fix
Didn’t mean to make you feel so comfortable
Yes of course i'm charging for that video
Lying bout your dreams like they were made for two
Were you that vain
Or was I just that gullible?
Waiting, hoping, praying you'd still
Touch me the same
Waiting, hoping, praying you'd still
Call my name
Waiting, hoping, praying I’d be enough
To make you wanna change
Waiting, hoping, praying you'd be
Half the man that you claimed
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I want to see you- and I think you are- let go of a lot of the narratives of what other people told you and what you told yourself make you important or worthy. It's no big secret that you're gorgeous and you're talented and you're warm and all those kinds of things… But if one day you want to be a bitch, you're allowed to do that.
-Bella Genta
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Rumors fill up my phone
But nothing’s factual
Swear they love you
Then fold, then they fold, no
I'll probably regret giving this my energy
I'm not the type to go and clear my name
But you don’t know me babe
Say you’ve heard some things
But you don’t got no receipts
Say you heard about me
None of that he said, she said
Say you heard about me
Fuck whatever he said, she said
Say you heard about me
None of that he said, she said
Say you heard about me
Fuck whatever he said, she said
If he say I’m the one, he’s in pursuit
She gon say that that’s just what she do
And if you’re taking their word for truth
Then what does that say about you?
Smiling my face like we’re cool
This ain’t nothing new
Say you heard about me
None of that he said, she said
Say you heard about me
Fuck whatever he said, she said
Say you heard about me
None of that he said, she said
Say you heard about me
Fuck whatever he said, she said
I’m not explaining to nobody
Seems like you already know buddy
Don’t need my story no y’all got it
Y’all got it now I’m not explaining to nobody
Seems like you already know buddy
Don’t need my story no y’all got it
Y’all got it now
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I don't want you to ever lose how deeply you feel, or how deeply you love. But I want you to love yourself and love your life so fucking deeply that when someone is not contributing to that, that you choose to love yourself more. Right, if it was little G they were treating like that, or if it was little Sofia, they were treating like that, or even if it was me, would you accept what you're getting?
-Bella Genta
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Finish your sentence
It’s the last one you’ll get
I’ve already done my time
For the guilt on your breath
Know that I’m better off, getting lost
Prefer riding solo
You’re getting off, paying off
Rent from my photos
You dream of redemption
While I sleep in his bed
I pray, you’ll stay
Far removed
I’m not your muse
Go find, some other kind
Of pretty fool
Who’s stupid enough to love you
Maybe you were wrong
Maybe this is karma
Why you picking battles
When the war’s already won?
I waited at the corner
You got what you wanted
Now you miss the old me
Well, look at what you taught her
I’m better off, getting lost
Prefer riding solo
You’re getting off
showing off, all our old photos
You dream of redemption,
While I kiss him instead
I pray, you’ll stay
Far removed
I’m not your muse
Go find, some other kind
Of pretty fool
Who’s stupid enough to love you
Who’s stupid enough to love you
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I can’t fake it
You done put this fire in me
Staying patient
Cautious where my heart is headed
But you got me like
Please pick up the phone when I’m all alone
needing you right here
Who’s been on your mind
Got your time
Like that ain’t my shit
If I fall, will I land safely?
Give you my all
Will you waste it?
Cus I’m on call
I been patient
I’m too involved
My heart is aching
Is it my fault
If I call you baby
Would you disgrace me?
Too late for praying
You already got the best of me
God-forsaken
Oh I could be a miracle
If only you believe
But you got me talking to myself
“get yourself together
baby we’re right here”
It’s wild in my mind
All the butterflies making it so clear
If I fall, will I land safely?
Give you my all
Will you waste it?
Cus I’m on call
I been patient
I’m too involved
My heart is aching
Is it my fault
If I call you baby
Would you betray me?
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Say something
Don’t leave it til the morning
Sweet nothings
We can no longer afford them
On a late night
And you’re downtown
But it can’t wait now
Didn’t kiss me on
Your way out
Thought I knew you, well
Thinking you would stick aroundMaybe you think it would be easier to love somebody else
Was I a fool for nothing?
Following your lead
Playing it cool, it’s nothing
If I’m not what you need
I thought we were onto something
With you on top of me
Oh was I a fool for loving
With no guarantee?
You begged me to let you in
Oh you had me convinced
That I was overly cautious
In holding up the process
Of loving you
When it takes two
Now I can’t get back
What’s overdue
Well I lost all of my commonsense
And gave you all my innocence
Shoulda never let my guard down
You got me driving round
These midnight streets near your house
In case you hit me now
Thinking back, yeah i was good all by myself
But you been turning me into somebody else
Was I a fool for nothing?
Following your lead
Breaking my rules becoming
Your new fantasy
Thought we were onto something
With You on top of me
Was I a fool for loving
With no guarantee
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Anytime you change, anytime you shift- for me, there's this deep fear and this deep pain of loss, of like, what parts of me am I losing that I really love but I have to leave behind? That's the painful part for me.
-Bella Genta

